I Try To Be Funny So Someone Finds At Least Something About Me Attractive

Wow. I havent written in here in forever, and I have less than two weeks left. Um... what to say.... it's been good and it has been bad. I had the best time ever with Jon last Sunday. Took me around Grand Rapids and I had so much fun. So that was awesome. Too bad I wont be able to hang out with him anymore. I was really bad, and was supposed to hang out with Creepy Pizza Guy that Sunday, but never called him back... the girls gave me crap today about it. They actually counted down the guys I haven't called back.... six. SIX?!?! Oh my gosh.... that makes me look horrible. Either that, or it makes the guys here look desperate. Haha.
Cant believe I am going to miss the Olympics... I love watching the gymnastics. Not really a summer Olympics fan otherwise. So instead of enjoying routines, I am going to a wedding I dont condone. Finally got an outfit today. It's actually cute! Hoping I will be comfortable in it. We're leaving tomorrow to go up north. I'll let you know more when I have more time... have a great day!

I'm Sorry..... WHAT?

Finally got to see The Dark Knight. It was pretty much everything I expected it to be. I would absolutely recommend it. Though I hope your experience does not include a screaming baby or obnoxiously loud teenagers. Took Jon with. He was 30 minutes late and we ended up going to a different show. So no points for reliability. Anyway, so we watched the movie and then I got invited to go to Kalamazoo with him. I didnt have anything else to do for the day and I thought it would be fun, so I said sure. Fun as it was, looking back on it I should have said no. Anyway, he talks the entire hour drive there and I just listen to his past antics meanwhile thinking "Oh my gosh... he was one of the guys in high school that I made fun of!" Still it was fun to hear about horrible situations that would never happen to me. And it made the hour go by quite quickly. He made a comment about his mom having called and wanting him to stop by and I was thinking "Oh, we are NOT going to your parents house... that would be more awkward than I could handle." Luckily we just went to DJ and Megan's house. (I went to her parents' house to watch fireworks on the fourth...) Turns out she is pregnant. Congrats to them. So the boys decide that we should do dinner and a movie. We go to Olive Garden and I keep thinking "I cant afford this..." so I just order something small. The entire time I sit in silence as the guys talk about the past and people I do not know and situations I dont find humorous. I keep trying to strike up a conversation with Megan, but nothing is happening. I put in a witty comment here and there, and when I get no response, I have no idea what to do. I've never been not funny before. I'm usually the outgoing one with all the jokes, but they just werent going with it. It made me even more uncomfortable because I didnt know how to act around these guys. After dinner, instead of going to the movie we had just seen the guys decide we should go bowling. Nevermind that I hate bowling. So much. I try getting out of it by saying I dont have socks (yay sandals!) but wouldnt you know it... Megan has socks in her car. Who has socks in their car?!?! We go bowling and I did horrible as always. I even went past the line on the lane and did the splits because it was so slick. I almost couldnt get up again! I had such a hard time getting my footing. And the entire time we are bowling the others arent saying anything. No cheering, no encouraging words, not even joking around. Just waiting for their turn. I was miserable. I kept trying to smile and make do, but by the time we left (11.30 pm) I just wanted to go home. We all ended up going back to DJ and Megan's house and watching the VH1 Tribute to The Who for an hour. The Who? I dont think I recognize anything they play. And they werent even the ones playing! I started to fall asleep on the couch from boredom when I think Jon realized I was either tired or bored and suggested we leave. Again we got along just fine on the way back. I listened to him talk about his ex girlfriends for the entire hour while I braced myself at every red light (I am still freaked out when others drive). My car was at his house because I couldnt leave it at the mall where we had watched the movie so we went back there. I thought I was going to hang out there for a while since he didnt say anything about my leaving and he knew I didnt have to back at any certain time. So I basically stood around while he talked to his roommate and friend for an hour. I was not acknowledged at all, nor introduced to these guys. Eventually I just said that I was going to leave, and grabbed my purse, said thanks for the fun, and left. No walk to the door, no real Cya later, nothing. I even left the two stuffed animals that he won for me at the bowling alley. Though I'm not sure if they were for me... he said "I got these for you", but that was to everyone at the table.... though he was looking at me... he looked at me a lot throughout the night. You know when you feel someone looking at you and you can see out of the corner of your eye... whatever. So I left those there. I get back home at 2.30 and was going to write him a letter saying thanks for all the fun and for taking a poor girl out on the town, so I go to his myspace to find his address or at least his last name. I look at this note that kinda stands out, and he talks about how he hung out with this girl for one night that didnt really have good social skills. This note was written almost right after us hanging out for the first time. All I could think of was Fuck You. You try being thrown into a situation where you know NOBODY and nobody makes any move to talk to you or make you feel even slightly comfortable. No social skills? Thanks for never holding the door open, introducing me to anyone, or asking me what I thought about anything. Some friend. So yeah, I'm a little upset. But at least the movie was good and I have lunch from Olive Garden tomorrow. You learn a little bit more every day, and I have learned a little bit about what my limits are today.
Have a great day!

I'm Huge In China

The past few days have been uneventful. Yesterday Athena and I were watching Tyra and the show was about people who had addictions. One of the guys was addicted to porn. I certainly wasnt going to explain to Athena what porn was, and the show didnt go into details, just said that the guy loved watching videos of porn and loved looking at photos. I thought it had slid past her until after the show Thene looked at me and asked "Why would someone be addicted to corn?" Thank you, innocent minds!
Today I wasnt feeling well so Athena brought me some vanilla yogurt and let me sleep in. What a sweetheart. She also poured me a bowl of my own cereal (probably shouldnt leave the box out...). The girl is adorable and so thoughtful... it's so sad that her parents never show any physical love. She always cuddles up next to me and I shower her with hugs and kisses to the forehead. But her parents always shy away and push her to the side whenever she comes for consolation. I just dont know how a girl treated like that could be so loving.
Didnt get to see The Dark Knight yet. I wanted to go to the Imax and see it but it turns out that it has been sold out for over a month and the next open spot is two weeks from now. Well dang. I guess I'm going to have to go see it with all the other poor fans. I've heard simply amazing things about it, though. Even that it was better than sex. So I really hope to not be disappointed.
I watched Penelope on my laptop today and it inspired me to buy more soundtrack music. I purchased The Fall of Palladio by Kerry Muzzey, A Nice Ride from Seabiscuit, Hero from Kung Fu Panda, Smart Exit from Get Smart, a few songs from Penelope, even some songs from The Sims 2! But my favorite/worst purchase was Casper's Lullaby by James Horner. I absolutely HATE Casper because it makes me so sad. I rarely cry, but this movie makes me sob. So listening to the main song that has so many memories attached to it is pretty harsh to listen to. Unfortunately my stupid brain keeps listening to it on repeat. I'm a glutton for punishment. Here is a link to the song if you dont know it: http://youtube.com/watch?v=_8LZLn3BHBM
Because I didnt go to TDK I gave Jon a call today. He was at the Vans Warped Tour.... lucky. Anyway, I'm going with him sometime tomorrow. Better than going alone!
Have a great day!

No Witticism Tonight!

Spent the day at the mall with the girls. Roamed around. Originally we were just supposed to go to WalMart and get Sam a bathing suit, but it started pouring out so we went to the mall instead. The girls were quite good, and I let Athena and Audrey play in the kids section of the mall (they have like slides and stuff for them) until they got too tired playing tag. I'm just pumped that they got along at all! Saw Jon at the A&W and showed him my bruises. He one-up'd me by telling me that I got his dog so riled up that it went into his room and tore the back off his Motley Crue tee. Whoops...

I Can Pull Off Mixed Prints

Sooooo......... where to begin? I'm about to pass out quite early, so I had better make this long story quick. Sorry for all who worried... I have a reason that I wasnt on! I'll tell the Brad story first and then the Jon story.
K, so I get over to Brad's house. REALLY nice place, fancy cars in the garage. One of them is a silver Chevy Impala. I was impressed. So it's 2am by the time I get there, and we go into the living room to watch Halloween (the Rob Zombie version). I popped a squat on the couch. Little did poor naive Jakki know... she wanted to hang out, Brad wanted to make out. Being a cuddly person, when Brad scooted over toward me, I didnt protest. It's all in good fun. Until he takes my chin in his hand as asks to kiss me. First of all, I dont think anyone has ever done that to me. Very polite. I'm proud of him. And second, WHAT?!?! When did this turn into a date? I wanted to watch a movie!!! Of course I turned him down, he says "Ouch." but still cuddles. So the entire rest of the movie he's trying to give me back massages while I'm trying to watch the damn movie. But I was so stupid... I think I've just been away from companionship for too long because I dont think I ever blatantly told him to stop. Just pushed him away. And it was a back massage. A good one at that! And I dont get them that often... anyway, I am making excuses. So when the movie is over I pretty much sprint to my car (he walks me to it), say thanks, it was fun, the whole shebang, and haul ass back to the house. I just felt so confused and upset by the whole situation that I took a shower as soon as I returned. I had nothing like that planned in my mind. I mean, he is a good looking guy, but I certainly am not looking for anything right now. I felt like he invited me under false pretenses. But when I asked a few of my guy friends about it, they told me that yeah, it was a date. I just didnt know it. But to them it was obvious. Dang it, dang it, dang it! When did it become so hard to just be friends with people? So yeah. That was that night. Didnt get any sleep at all. And last night I once again got no sleep.
So... Jon's story. K. We were supposed to watch a movie at his house... but now because of the whole Brad thing I was extremely hesitant, like I needed a disclaimer or something. He calls....
Sorry for that break. Just talked on the phone with Jared for an hour. Poor guy is having a really hard day. Anyway... he calls and said that his friend from Kalamazoo was up, so I thought he was going to cancel on me. Instead I end up going with him to his friend's fiance's parent's house to watch fireworks and eat their food (but I was feeling sick so I ate nothing. Lack of sleep does that to me). We watch the fireworks and talk to DJ and his fiance who were both completely nice. Then we went back to Jon's to watch Grindhouse. We get to his front door (he lives with roommates, not his parents. THANK GOD. That was weird with Brad) and I hear shaking going on inside the house. Door opens and this huge black lab bounds out and covers me with puppy kisses. I am enamored with this dog! So (and I feel really bad about this) the entire time he watches the movie and I play with the dog. I am now completely covered in bruises and scratches. But to see a dog again... SO worth it! So anyway, I realize I have no idea how to get back unless it is light out so I end up staying the night. Once again get no sleep because the dog decides that it doesnt want to stop playing. My downfall. I get up at 8.30 because Jon has to go to work and I am so tired that I pass out in my car for a good two hours before I can see well enough to drive. Make it back here safe and sound. So yes, I am alive, and yes, I'm stupid. But I really did need to hang out with other people this weekend, even if it meant uncomfortable situations. Now all I need is a video game session and I'm set for the rest of the month!!!

xoxo

1.30 AM Ramblings

So in the middle of a phone call with Jon (who is coming back from Kalamazoo tomorrow and wanted to know what type of movie I wanted to watch) I get a phone call from Brad. Popular tonight! It's like 1.30 and he wants to know if I still want to come over and watch a movie. I'm like sure, I'm in my pjs, I've been ready to fall asleep for the past hour, lets do this! So now I'm going over to someone that I dont really know's house in the middle of the night with directions I took down with eyeliner because there is no pen. If I dont write tomorrow, it is because I have been kidnapped and killed. And all to watch Halloween. Haha.

xoxo

I'd Be The Best Companion For The Doctor Since Rose Tyler

Today has been filled with people I havent talked to in forever. Awesomeness!
The family left today to go up to the lake house for the fourth. Yay for day off, boo for less pay. Should have asked for a flat rate regardless.... dang it. I guess you just learn. So anyway, I go to Blockbuster to see what Eric is doing or maybe that chick that talked to me about Guitar Hero. Eric isnt there but I see the other guy that I frequently wave to. Never learned his name, but his nametag said Brad, so I'm trusting it. Told him I was looking for something to do and got invited over to his place to watch a movie tomorrow. Sounds fun. I wanted something to do for tonight but I'll take it. Went back to the house and called up Jon from A&W. He is also busy tonight but invited me over tomorrow to watch a movie. Sounds fun. Told him sure without thinking. So now I am going to see two movies tomorrow if I can work it out. Without either guy knowing I am going over to someone else's house to watch another one. Muahahaha.
Also talked to McLane tonight on the phone. He called out of the blue and we chatted for forever. I miss him so much. I'm glad he likes the Main U, but when he said he would have rather been in Duluth last semester my heart just went out to him. We all know that he mainly went down to be with his girlfriend, and she seems like a sweetheart. I just hope she makes him happy. They've been together over a year and I wish them the best. So anyway, we gossip and I find out that Miller rear ended a cop car! Last week! And he didn't call me. I want to find out about this stuff right away! I want my friends reactions to be "Oh crap, I should call Jakki" not "Oh crap, I should call my lawyer." I want to be the first to know!!! So yeah, the car is totaled. But it gets better.... the cop whose car he hit...... it was his first day on the job. SHABAM! Haha. Poor guy. But that story made my day. Sorry Miller! Hope you're okay!

xoxo